She Can’t Be Saved

You dated her so you could feel like her savior

she’s down and out for the count

but you pick her back up, dust her off and tell her enough

she don’t have to deal with that life anymore

cause you’ll make it better than it was before

you can have all her needs met

all her problems, she could just forget

cause you’re here, you care, catching all her tears

thinking you can cure all her fears

healing her insecurities with your ego stroking therapy

cause you are the remedy when life is her enemy

She’s so filled with hate, she can’t be saved
insecurities, created toxic impurities
her path is paved, she can’t be saved
there’s no amount of excuses for her behavior
she needs self love, and that can’t wait for later

The appeal is real but what about the love you feel

you fell for broken pieces and struggle to grasp the reasons

your relationship goes through changes like the seasons

the ups and downs are a nonstop roller coaster

but you believe all of this only brings you closer

there’s a passion you feel from an over abundance of empathy

but the more she breaks down, the more you feel empty

how could your cure fail, your presence not be enough

and now you deal with constant rebuffs

but it only makes you fight harder than before

cause if it isn’t working the key must be to love more

how can you be whole together when she had a hole to begin with

you tried to save her from herself without the foundations of friendship

and now look how it is all ending
you’ve dug your grave and sorrow is your bedding

the best of intentions with the most selfish of deeds

you gave her what she wanted, but never what she needs

she took you and your efforts for granted

there are so many inconsistencies, you don’t understand it

but reality is you were never meant to save her

she needed saving, buy she didn’t need you to be a savior

take a step back and see that every cry was a cry for love
not your love but for self love
you fell for potential that goes untapped and held back
suppressed by a cruelty that resides deep within her soul
she’s just not the one whom you are meant to grow old
she is a tyrant in her own right, maybe she’ll be saved
but it shouldn’t be by you, and not today
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What You Get

she don’t like to be told what to do

but she don’t like to be single

she is everybody’s, she’s an individual

seeking validation in her decisions

but doesn’t care for the indecision

she pokes and prods, she’s relentless, it doesn’t stop

she pulls no punches, brings you down further even when she’s on top

insecure about who she is and who she thinks you are

her defenses are low, but still she starts the war

mind if she ever feels slighted, her mind is already divided

she will create lies, just one trick on her 8-sided die

manic-depressive, no, just unhealthily obsessive

imagining scenarios to create drama, she feeds on guilt

even if you didn’t do a thing, she wants you to sing

confess to her, your wrong doing, your ills, your disgusting ways

and don’t you dare not know what to say

truth is you don’t know a thing about love
truth hurts but apparently you haven’t been hurt enough
will you ever learn? how will you earn your own respect
because when you don’t, she is what you get
hope you’re not too late to save yourself
do yourself a favor and love anyone else

you’ve created a monster and slept with the beast

you enabled her war, served yourself at her feast

a victim is what you made yourself

by ignoring your own beliefs and the advice of everyone else

you neglect the god you pray to because of the tears she uses to play you

sleeping with the devil because she says stay and lays with you

her love is a light switch and you are kept in darkness

so you can’t see what should be so obvious

there’s a starkness in highs and lows on the day to day

you are not her future, just a placeholder on layaway

but you convince yourself that 5th time is the charm

after shes dismembered you, you still think she means no harm

your naivety is such a pity, but pity no more for a man who fuels his own demise

the truth is everywhere, but you aren’t man enough to look it in the eyes

tear yourself down for what you think is love, she doesn’t love you

your brain cries because your heart is such a fool

she’s abusive, she’s callous
you are a servant in her palace
and all you can do is make excuses

she makes you feel crazy and useless

the day you questioned your sanity should of been your check up on reality

you want simple and she is all about vanity

your construct of her qualities lack originality

her excuses for her behavior, filled with banality

she is not your queen, but your authoritarian ruler

you will never be who you want to be under her regime

if only you learn your value before it’s too late

no one can save you if you don’t want to be saved

don’t be a fool, blinded by a cruel ambition

that will only lead to a wicked resolution

you’re in a position to shape your life for the better

but life can promise you ruin, if you let her

Cherry Blossom

she has that orgasmic touch
such a rush, can’t get enough
traditional mixed with a little new age
smart enough to write the news on the front page
Its been years and she still has your ears
her words seduce and reintroduces you to her world
can’t escape the charm of the runaway girl
she is unwillingly desirable
and your lust for her, so undeniable
your reasoning is as toxic as her logic
you’re under her trance and nothing will stop it

cherry blossom, that rose from concrete
the arch of her brows to the arch of her feet
you fall for her smile, her style
you wanna be wherever she is
you want her to make you live

you put her in the back of your mind
but future memories resurface from time to time
you go in and out of phases
her vision is so contagious
you want to see the world through her eyes
you don’t care if it all turns out to be lies
she can lead you to the edge of death
she can take what’s left of your very last breath
her dreams are courageous, she’s the star of the show
her goals moving at a pace that keeps you on the go

her style, her grace, nothing caked on the face
all natural, from head to toe, down to her taste
her body exotic, her mind a bit erotic
some days she’s a trip, a hit of LSD
makes your pulse faster, she’s your ecstasy
she stands apart, special place in your heart
rubs you the right way
with her go against the grain attitude
you don’t want to intrude, but you know what you gotta do
no one comes close and it’s all up to you

True Melody

The curiosity that dances in my mind
makes me want to give you more time
unlocking more pieces of the puzzle
each discovery only brings more trouble
you say you know my life, how could you?
but If I let you in, would you?
get to know me a little bit better
can we get to know each other together?
the heart yearns for someone else
but the mind seems infatuated
everything about you is more than I anticipated
we lock eyes so much, it feels intentional
what do you do? what do I do?
when all that is wrong is right
when all that is true, is everything we don’t do

Tell me, what is your true Melody
confess to me, tell me gently
you have no attachment to this world
so what keeps you grounded
tell me the truths I haven’t found yet

we were liars, just to excuse the days
days where our eyes could never look away
body language couldn’t be more creative
there are so many ways that we never say it
hoping it was a phase and we can forget it
but no amount of pretending prevented any befriending
in the slightest hopes of something more
don’t know the last time a thought about you has been pure
don’t know the last time I wanted it to be
everything we’re missing still remains fiction
this is me wishful thinking without the wishing
if we only saw in us what everyone else sees
it could of been real anytime you wanted it to be

now it feels like I’m losing you to another man
but you were never mine, so never mind
time plays tricks on me all the time
always dreaming of your body underneath mine
I fall behind because I fell in love
but at the wrong time, so what’s the use
you were my muse
but minus the past-tense
cause even now, we have surpassed friends
you are everything I chose without choosing
if I had a choice to show you what you mean to me
we’d already be one for eternity

Read You

you read like its going out of style
I’m trying to catch up, it might take a while
more like a lifetime
because there is your speed, then there is mine
you read like the world is about to end
the library is your best friend
day and night and every time in between
not a single word in a single book goes unseen
the love affair between you and literature
makes you a honorary literary figure

you’re Belle and books are your beast
in all the chaos, they bring you peace
but how well do you read people with no equal
take me in, I’m one of a kind, no sequel
read me like a novel with a plot you can’t see through
and one day I’ll learn to read you

why do you read like you’re running out of time?
where is there space in your complicated mind?
for the world around you, waiting your approval
people filled with words that could never defuse you
1000 words per minute with 100 percent comprehension
a guru for books, but films shouldn’t be mentioned
they get no distinction, all apprehension
the pride that hides in between each page flip
the journey behind each novel is a complete trip
your mind races alone to places no one has ever been
it’s no contest, no one can keep up in a race you always win

you read like your life depends on it
it’s your life support and you just won’t quit
book clubs are created to compete with you
but they struggle to keep up with you
they are a lifetime behind your brilliant mind
figuring out where you even find the time
what you can read in a fraction of yours
is the mystery of life everyone’s searching for
will your literary mind ever be satisfied
read like you need it to survive
keep doing what makes you feel alive
how much can you read with one life
everyone would have to live twice
to read the way you impossibly do
there are readers, writers, and then there’s you

Last Call

think I want something cause I complimented you?
I happened to see your eyes and thought they were beautiful
but your soul is a little outdated
a simple kindness, and you can’t appreciate it
your mind, lost in a time when everyone had motives
I am not them, you are not my focus
your significance to me, that of a ripple in the ocean
you caught my eyes, but for all the wrong reasons
I thought it was someone like you that I was needing
you had my heart for one of a million reasons
but turns out, you’re a cherry blossom in fall, out of season

you’re out there looking for a bone to fetch
how could I forget when you let nothing rest
you want the best but refuse to give it to anyone else
last call for you to be better than this version of yourself
cause I’m trying, but my fight for you is dying

you’re privileged yet always so on the edge
you’d complain to the homeless about the quality of your bed
cause nothing is ever good enough
with an inability to accept life can get a little rough
you can never be wrong in your eyes
everyone owes you an apology for your own damn lies
so I’m sorry that you are in your own way
for how stubborn you are on the day to day
I’m sorry you know how to twist my words to make them say the worst
I’m so sorry you ego has an insatiable thirst
you’re deceived by eyes that see what they want to see
you hear what you want to hear if it presents a case against me

I’m tired of letting you off the hook
I speak a truth that leaves you shook
you preach how much you know and understand me
but your comprehension of my culture is still in its infancy
you have no idea what it’s like to live with my identity
you don’t know my struggle so no need to pretend
living in your bubble, from a distance you are a convenient friend
you think you’re so impressive that it should be acknowledged
but its how hollowed out you are that leaves me astonished
so don’t flatter yourself speaking to me condescendingly
you’ve taught me nothing but how friends become enemies
I’m smart enough to know not to waste my energy
to think I once thought the problem was with me

Crash & Burn

you bark, I tend to growl back
that’s how we always have and continue act
I say go right, you go left
we’re at each other til there’s nothing left
you bring out the best with glimpses of your worst
we are a catalyst to chaos, unscripted, unrehearsed
we mean well but we only bring hell
you rain hell-fire missiles
yet there are days I miss you
but you shouldn’t have the satisfaction of that admission
I chose the words you hear of my own conviction
we clash for an abundance of reasons
yet our chemistry still seems to defy seasons
I know that I make things hard enough, I’m hard to love
but your heart is equally difficult, and hard to touch

We clash, we crash and we burn
we put out the fire and rebuild
we learn that when things take a turn
we will
fight against, fight with, fight for each other
until the day we quit one another

 
The back and forth seems as routine as work
the constant jabs, the blows that never hurt
what do you have to gain from me?
think you’re in control of the games you play with me
with everything to lose, you’re going to lose
I choose to let you win, to let you in
I fuel the fire you use against me
you have always been more a necessary rival than enemy
the challenges we face, we create
pushing buttons just for the sake of provocation
fully ready to embrace any retaliation

explaining our dynamic to anyone else
is like you trying to explain yourself
it just doesn’t make any sense
but its charming to hear your defense
we can’t even explain us to ourselves
how have we come so far? but where are we really?
I fight for you as you wage war against me
we call a truce, but those words end up empty
we’ve come a long way and so much further to go
there’s so much left unanswered, but it’s better not to know
you never have to ask how I feel, you know the deal
whether its love or hate, you know its real

Mutually Exclusive

your past escapes me
I can’t even pretend to know
your soliloquy creates a mystery
that you will forever be shrouded in
because I’m not sure you’ll ever let me in
you taunt and tease my curiosity
I fell for our memories and what we could be
but not the reality of what we would be
friends and still perfect strangers
still we display a bond so undeniable
pain and laughter all too reliable
a comfort tangled and entwined
when and where do we draw the line

you know too much about me
I regurgitated my history without hesitation
no rhyme or reason, no justification
no fabrications, no protecting myself with lies
the honesty was pure when I first met your eyes
I’m usually the mystery to everyone else
but I revealed the real me to yourself
you know a different me than everyone else
my flaws are apparent, and you take them
you take me so casually, I thought it was just me
but everyone has something to say about our chemistry
potential energy that will never become kinetic
we are what we are and I won’t forget it
whatever you invest in me, I’ll protect it

you’re the most interesting person I don’t know
we’re so close, but I just don’t know
if this is a mutually exclusive feeling
I don’t what kind of hands we’ve been dealing
but the more I get to know you
the less I know what to do

a naturally occurring phenomenon, nature introduced us
how can having what we have not be and be enough
the most trivial of things brings me closer to you
a mind this challenging, I must pursue
I fight to know more, there’s too much left to explore
but you know all you need, that I’m not what you need
but I’m not so sure that your heart is up to speed
elephant in the room, I remember every last detail
every quip, those are the memories I protect
the truth is in the sarcasm we try to redirect

Jungle Gym

the world is my playground, I toy with it
give me power and I’ll eat it, cause I’m power hungry
I’m the best at what I do
I know you think you something with your girl, acting brand new
without any effort, I’m taking better care of her than you
life becomes effortless when you are your best
no hesitation proving that to the rest
I set goals and attack them with elite precision
every decision I make is the best decision
so many people out there always testing me
but they can’t get a taste of my recipe
they can’t comprehend my alchemy
and I know what is best for me
I’m going to do what’s best for me
any imitators can settle being less than me

I pray every way I go is the right way
obstacles are just child’s play
til my dying day, I’m always gonna find a way
I’m the king, and all I know is how to win
this world is my play thing, my jungle gym

I don’t play games, I just take names
so I can hand out consolation prizes
no surprises, I always perform at the highest
it’s the only thing I know how to do
and if I lose, it’s because I choose to
I don’t care who you are, I won’t lose to you
I’m always on another level that can’t even be seen
I’m sorry, you even lose to me in your dream
and I know that’s not fair, but should I care?
no competition since you can’t win without my permission
your life goals I accomplish in my sleep
but outside of competition I’m humble and meek
carefully chosen are the words I speak
so every promise, claim, bet, is absolutely deliberate

I slow down so that life has a chance to catch up
it taps out when I’ve given it enough
non-confrontational but I still don’t hide
I don’t back down, I don’t bide
my footsteps are too big for you to walk in
so don’t waste my time with all that gully talk
cause you have no idea of the storm you taunt tonight
I’m a new level of dominance that would haunt you for life
hang it up now and I promise to be polite
I have a reputation for being a man of my word
so if I say I already won, its the greatest truth you’ve heard
no hesitation, life is lived with an ounce of desperation
everything I do is consequential
carefully thought through, success is sequential
I know my strengths and weaknesses
can’t keep up, I can imagine how bleak this is
if it’s not for me, then I simply don’t do it
I don’t compromise, but you make sure the shoe fits
that’s the difference between me and you
the difference between win and lose

Clarity

I try to control my mind
but sometimes the mind wonders
wonders where would we be
how would we do things differently
how would you look at me
if we shared the same home
if we were both alone

wouldn’t that be a turn of events
if there were less of a mystery to present
because I knew you so well
if I were there to catch you when you fell
what would we be in our moment of clarity
how different would life by if you were with me

what do you see in me when you stare?
is it emptiness, or is something there?
does my sensitivity give a false sense of fragility?
or do you embrace the thought of me?
who led who down this path?
the thought seems to linger
out of many, i’m still a beginner
of all the ones from the past
will I be the first to last?

misled by a strong sense of ambition
or do you also feel that something is missing
when we are apart, when it’s after dark
something constantly fuels my desire
and something about you sets off a spark
my heart’s in flames if ever you say my name
but does it get spoken from your tongue
what if I’m not the one for you?
what am I suppose to do if that is true?
been so full of myself and what I want to be
never considered what if you don’t want me

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