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Lead Me Astray

I was wrong to think I was over you
just because I no longer wanted to get under you
I wanted you to be my mistake
and a part of me still wants you to
every time I do a double take
I realize the irony of every decision I make
I take the right roads to the wrong place
and everywhere I look, I see your face
with every answer I have, I still question fate

I sit across from someone who can’t match your wit
lacks your style, your confidence, and gives me shit
every time I push her to do better she breaks
she hesitates, crippled by anxiety to achieve more
I give so much of myself, sometimes I wonder “what for”
everything she does falls short of not doing anything
I fight every battle in a war I won’t win
personal growth is a foreign concept
to have you over her is no contest
when she speaks, I smile, but I know she can’t compete
I feel so cornered but I know I can’t cheat

point me in the right direction
lead me away, even if it leads me astray
away with you to pursue something new
I’ll never be satisfied until you satisfy me
if I ever lose my way, come find me

You were suppose to be there in wait
to make sure I did not make this mistake
now we’re in a state of limbo
in a time where we were both single
hard living in a reality of til death do us part
when you still have my heart
and now you’re considering taking that leap of faith
here’s to hoping you aren’t making my mistake
or maybe here’s to hoping you do
so that you see after it all, I’m the one for you

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Too Good for You

we talk a little less than we used to
but maybe that’s because we need to
my heart speeds up when I see you
but we both know that shouldn’t be true
my breath is shallow, but sharp like a knife
why do you make me feel so alive?
is it because we had so many memories together
before you promised someone else your forever
we were always something and never knew it
time passed us by and we never pursued it

I was the jester and you played me like a fool
I was too good to you, too good for you
you were too right for me, too polite to see
that we can, will, and should never be

I get jealous when you laugh at him
we come in first place but it doesn’t mean I win
it’s funny how things work the way they do
how it hurts like this is all new
like I didn’t know you gave someone else your time
sharing intimate memories I thought were solely mine
you miss me only when it’s convenient for you
only when you can’t get it from him, you let me in
I thought we were close, but that was only my definition
obviously you had your own interpretation
I spent so much time waiting and I’m not sure why
hoping you were brave enough to try
to begin to admit that you would never quit me
but history shows you would leave me empty

I know we’re scared to be honest
so we lie to each other about ourselves
deny each other for somebody else
to avoid the complication of our situation
absent is the reality that we should be facing
cause all we do is find replacements
and ignore the slightest of hesitations
accepting things with her, I feel complacent
the doubt that creeps in when you’re with him
so we end when and where the lies begin
and that’s just the way it’s going to be
until you admit to yourself that there’s more to me

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