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Last Call

think I want something cause I complimented you?
I happened to see your eyes and thought they were beautiful
but your soul is a little outdated
a simple kindness, and you can’t appreciate it
your mind, lost in a time when everyone had motives
I am not them, you are not my focus
your significance to me, that of a ripple in the ocean
you caught my eyes, but for all the wrong reasons
I thought it was someone like you that I was needing
you had my heart for one of a million reasons
but turns out, you’re a cherry blossom in fall, out of season

you’re out there looking for a bone to fetch
how could I forget when you let nothing rest
you want the best but refuse to give it to anyone else
last call for you to be better than this version of yourself
cause I’m trying, but my fight for you is dying

you’re privileged yet always so on the edge
you’d complain to the homeless about the quality of your bed
cause nothing is ever good enough
with an inability to accept life can get a little rough
you can never be wrong in your eyes
everyone owes you an apology for your own damn lies
so I’m sorry that you are in your own way
for how stubborn you are on the day to day
I’m sorry you know how to twist my words to make them say the worst
I’m so sorry you ego has an insatiable thirst
you’re deceived by eyes that see what they want to see
you hear what you want to hear if it presents a case against me

I’m tired of letting you off the hook
I speak a truth that leaves you shook
you preach how much you know and understand me
but your comprehension of my culture is still in its infancy
you have no idea what it’s like to live with my identity
you don’t know my struggle so no need to pretend
living in your bubble, from a distance you are a convenient friend
you think you’re so impressive that it should be acknowledged
but its how hollowed out you are that leaves me astonished
so don’t flatter yourself speaking to me condescendingly
you’ve taught me nothing but how friends become enemies
I’m smart enough to know not to waste my energy
to think I once thought the problem was with me


Monster, Number One

pray that you never see me angry
I’ve contained the beast for so long
that it continues to grow strong
scratching and clawing, letting all the pain in
trying to get out, but I hold back
and remain calm in the way I react
I do what I do to protect those I love
but once they cross me, they’ve lost me
and there is no mercy, no pity
a paradise now becomes shitty
I was raised to be a man
but born to be a monster
I am the coming of the storm
and the world’s been warned

I push the limits and see how far I get
but anyone who wants to intentionally neglect
I take it as total disrespect
maybe that’s not fair
that I’m telling what no one wants to hear
but I am not here to hide the truth
time to grow up, no longer a youth
you mad, don’t want to hear what I have to say
we can leave it at that, ok
and start to dismantle any memory of me
cause I can’t stand you to remember me
you won’t want to when I’m through
once this beast is unleashed on you

I bring out your best and worse
I’ve been blessed with the curse
the challenge you will never overcome
now introducing…
the monster, number one

I reside in the mind, focusing my time
my energy, pretending to be
while eager to see the end of an era
your era, cause you’ve lost my favor
I am the monster you see in the mirror
slowly break you down from the inside out
cause you hate me and still can’t be without, my presence
I can be relentless and so unfair
but now, I simply don’t care
I’ve broken free from that body containing me
and I’m on a rampage of unfocused rage
I engage in conflict just to fuel that rage
the book of your life, I’m the lost page
you’re in my path and its too late to be saved

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